Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Monday, November 29, 2010
She's awesome. 'nough said.
We've adjusted fairly well with our new addition, the kids love her to death and will do anything to help me with her. Her full name is Kevlie Sara Grover. Ryan has two kids named after him so he decided that one needed to be named after me. She is an excellent baby and we are so very blessed to have her with us. Father has put so much trust in us by giving us our children.
Ryan had his birthday on the 11th (he's 27 now!) Kaylyn had hers on the 22nd (she's 5!) and my mom recently had hers on the 26th (I don't know how old she is!)
Ryan was called out to work early so he wasn't here for Thanksgiving :( and won't be home for a little bit more. We miss him like crazy when he's gone and love being able to video chat with him and just normal chat with him. He's such a good part of our lives. I do think it's a little sad, I feel like he's misses a lot sometimes. But, that's what sacrifice is, giving up one good thing for something better, in the long run it will be worth it.
Holding Kevlie after getting ready for church
Daniel is such a cute boy! I remember my mom talking to me about how she had a hard time telling me 'no' when I was little because of how cute I was. I never knew what she meant, until this kid came along. I am so smitten with that boy! I just think he's so cute, even when he's dumping my flour all over my kitchen table. He's doing wonderfully though, still a monster, 4t clothes fit his torso perfectly, and his bottom half still fits into 3t. He won't be 3 until May.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
After three doses of Cyotec and being on monitors for two hours, then off for two, they started me on Pitocin at 8 in the morning. At noon they checked me and I was still dilated to a 1. My midwife told me at that time that if I wasn't dilated to a 4 by 5pm she thought it would be wise to send us home and try again another day. I tried so hard to get myself into positions that would put the most pressure on my cervix while I was contracting, but, I didn't do so well.
At 5pm the midwife came in and checked me again and still, I was only at a 1!! So we came home.
Now, for the emotional aspect of this adventure...
I was crying after the midwife and nurse left from telling us it would be best to go home. I was so tired of having monitors on me and sore from being poked four times to get the stinking IV in and not to mention the contractions and I hadn't had solid good since 8 that morning. Over all we were tired and half of me was glad to be going home. The other half? Kinda feels like a failure. I kept apologizing to Ryan, I still feel like it's my fault it didn't work. Ryan was awesome about it, he kept reassuring me and when we got home he made sure I went and laid down to sleep then took care of Daniel (the girls wanted to stay another night at Nana's). I have an amazing husband. On the way out to the car I couldn't help feel a little angry that one of the carriers in the back of the van wasn't holding a baby and that the car seat stayed empty on the way home.
BUT, to top it off, my house was clean when I got home! It was a mess when we left it, no joke, it was bad. I had tried to do some cleaning but didn't get nearly enough done that I wanted. I wish I knew who cleaned it, so I could buy them something - I mean, pretend to bake them something- to say thank you. Coming home to that made my day better, and at the same time, I felt bad again, cause we came home without a newborn.
We will be going in again on Tuesday to be induced, Monday evening I will be going in to my midwives to try to get another Foley catheter in (I pray it works). That's if she doesn't decide to come over the weekend. I honest to goodness hope that she's ready by Tuesday, if she's not, and we have another failed induction then Ryan will be calling his boss to see if he can stay home another week to help with the baby. If he can't, then I might be having this baby with the support of my mom by my bedside rather then my husband. :/
Hopefully everything works out just the way I want it to, really, that would make me so happy... Here's to hoping!
Friday, October 8, 2010
Anyways, so here's the update!
We are expecting our 4th child on the 22nd, although I'm thinking about changing the induction to the 20th, more on that later.
We are having a girl! Our 3rd, and I can't wait to meet another Ryan/Sara combination and see who Father has blessed us with. We were REALLY hoping for a boy, I thought it would be perfect, two girls, two boys, all that jazz, but it wasn't to be.
It was a little hard finding out we were having a girl, Emma cried as soon as the nurse told us, I made it till the next day, as I was cleaning out the drawer of baby boy things I had put together. We have all come to terms with it and in all honesty we are excited to have another baby!
We have picked out a name, well, we pretty much picked one out on the way home after the ultrasound. We were hoping to name the baby Kevin, in honor of my dad, but that wouldn't fly so well with a little girl, so we threw names around, first Kevlen, which was too close to Kevin and Kaylyn, so then we thought for a minute and Ryan thought of Kevlie, and it felt right. Ryan then went on to say that her middle name should be Sara, cause none of our kids have been named after me, but two have been named after him; Kaylyn Noel (Ryan's middle name is Leon, which spelled backwards is Noel) and Daniel has Ryan as his middle name. Although, my middle name is Danielle, so technically I do have a child named after me. But he's insisting on it. So Kevlie Sara it will be.
A few of our summer activities should be mentioned, mostly cause they rocked.
The Blue Angels! Oh, they were fun to watch, even now, Daniel will still talk about them and use his hands to show how they flew, and then tell you they were loud and show you how to cover your ears. And anytime there is a plane that the kids spot they immediately think it's the Angels. It was a lot of fun for the kids to watch them and learn more about them.
Eating Watermelon is seriously one of the best things about summer! I LOVE watermelon and the kids do too!
Emma turned eight this summer and was baptized! It was a little bitter sweet to realize that she really is growing up and learning to deal with all that comes with life.
Ryan made this cake for her, she's decided that her favorite color is blue, I forgot to take a picture but the inside was blue. She was totally stoked about it.
We decided to have her pick out her own dress, at first I was all about the white, but then thought she would enjoy picking out her own. She did an excellant job!
I love my girl! And we're so proud of her, she's made so much progress and continues to grow and learn.
Getting ready for the school year, which means, haircuts!!
Emma wanted to keep hers long so she can cut it short this upcoming summer.
Kaylyn wanted hers short enough she could spike it, we kept it a little longer then that, and she loves it!
And here's Daniel, cause he's just too darn cute!
Ryan now has a new job, he's working in North Dakota hauling water for the oil field. He's working two weeks on two weeks off so, to make sure he's here when we have the baby we will be inducing her on the 22nd! I'm super excited to have my baby! BUT, I was thinking. If I were to bump her induction date up to the 20th then her birthday would be 10-20-2010 or 10-20-10! How neat would that be!? It's such a once in a life time opportunity, that I'm having a hard time trying to decide what to do. The 22nd would work best, but I don't know if I can pass up a birthday like that. I need input!
Until next time! (which really won't be that long!)
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Today is my dads birthday, he passed away 7 years ago in September of cancer. It was an incredibly hard time for me and my family. My dad is an amazing person, he rose up from a bad childhood, and odds stacks against him to become a successful and well loved husband, father and business man. He is a wonderful man that I look up to and hope to be like someday.
His birthday has usually been something that's made me a bit sad, as you can imagine. But recently I found out that my sister in-law was born on the same day, she is such a sweet and fun person, I love the way her and my brother interact. I think they compliment each other, mostly for the fact that if Josh gives her crap she'll give it right back to him. And with him being my older brother, I love to see that. To have someone who I think is a great mother and sister share the same birthday with my dad is a godsend and I'm thankful that I now have a better way to see and feel a positive today.
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Yesterday, after I had accomplished nothing on the house, I decided to take a nap cause I had used up so much energy. The kids sat on the couch with me and watched tv while I dosed for about half an hour, after I woke up my pregnant bladder needed to be empied, so I hightailed it to the potty room. While I was in there I noticed that I was bleeding, I freaked. After 3 babies with no complications I was at a loss as to what could be going on, I thought the worst, that I was loosing the baby (or already had) and was pretty darn sure there wasn't anything that could be done. I called my midwives anyways and talked to the newest one who is also an ultrasound technologist. She asked me some questions and said she would like it if I would come in. We got a time set up for that day and after finding a babysitter and calling my husband to let him know what was going on, I made my way to their office.
The worst part was the waiting! I was so scared that I was loosing my baby and here I was sitting the the waiting room, not fun! So after I'm called in, we start the ultrasound and baby is fine, wonderfully fine, did you know at 12 weeks, they have ears? So cute.
The reason for the bleeding is my placenta, the edge of it is covering the edge of my cervix so it's doing some 'edge bleeding' as she said. She assured me that the as long as I wasn't having menstrual like bleeding and not doing any heavy lifting, everything would be fine.
After I got out of the office I called my husband to let him know everything was fine, poor guy was so worried and stressed about it. He had already gotten back from work and had just finished fueling his truck when I called so I mentioned that he would be home before I was but he then told me that he was starving and so stressed that he was going into his mom's house to grab something to eat and then he would head home. Later that night I had a banana split, it was heaven. I came to the decision that we both have a comfort eating problem.
I'm lucky I have such wonderful midwives that would go out of their way to make sure mom and baby are fine and that they worry about my baby almost as much I do.
Sunday, April 11, 2010
So now that I'm in my 2nd tri I'm thinking I'm having another boy, for these reasons:
Being pregnant with my girls I gained about 60lbs with each one, I lost about 30lbs after having each but obviously still have quite a bit to loose. Being pregnant with Daniel I actaully lost 10lbs in the first 12 weeks and then only gained 25-30lbs which I lost in the first 3 weeks after having him. So far with this baby I haven't gained anything, I'm more careful about eating before I get too hungry and keeping my blood sugar up.
With my girls, I had NO sex drive, I didn't want anything to do with it. It was about the opposite with Daniel and this one (to Ryan's pleasure) is about the same.
Those are pretty much (so far at least) the only two deciding factors at this point in time. I have about 8 weeks until we know for sure, but with how things are turning out so far, I'd be putting my money on a boy. I'm happy about that. Yay for babies!
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
So I had my first appointment today! I got an ultrasound and got to see the my baby, so much fun. The midwives just moved into a new building and got new equipment, the ultrasound machine is awesome! It's gives such good pictures, I was able to see it's little heart and to hear it as well. The baby measured a week earlier then what we thought though, so the official due date is Oct 24. And knowing my babies it won't be willing to come out until Nov 1.
So here are the pictures of my fetus. The tail looking thing is the umbilical cord.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Now I don't want to give tmi, but I was really sure I wasn't pregnant, but the days ticked by and still no 'lady days'. I told a friend of mine that Aunt Flow still hadn't made a visit and she pretty much insisted that I was pregnant, so that night I asked Ryan to stop and get a test for me, he was brave and did.
I took the test while he was walking out to get the mail, mostly cause I didn't want him hanging around all nervous to see the results. No, he isn't that bad, I was just impatient to see if I was or if my cycle was off like crazy (I was seriously leaning towards my cycle being off, we've never gotten pregnant on the first try!). And honestly? (I know this IS tmi but here ya go) we haven't been using any sort of birth control for about a year.
After peeing on the stick it took about 5 seconds for it to tell me that I am indeed pregnant. I was phyced, I stood by the front door waiting for Ryan to come in so I could tell him. We kissed, we hugged I squealed like a school girl and then told him 'thanks for the baby'. I am so happy to be having another baby. It's going to be our last, I'm not sure how I feel about that (I am only 24). But hopefully by the end of this I'll know for certain.
You all are invited on this journey with me and even if you don't want to hear about it you probably will anyways. Sorry about that.
With every pregnancy I've had, in short I've gotten what I wanted.
With my first, I wanted a girl, probably becuase I am a girl and also becuase I didn't want her Bio dad being more attached, which he would have been if I had a boy. Also, I was about 8 months preggo with her when the movie Monsters Inc. came out. When Boo stepped onto the screen and I saw her I said to myself 'awe, I want a baby that looks like that!' and, she does. We call her Bugga Boo.
My second, I wanted another girl, Ryan and I had been married for 2 months when we got pregnant and we were still adjusting to Emma and I having him in our lives and the changes of roles. I again, was worried that if I had a boy Ryan would love and favor him far more then he would Emma, so I asked for a girl, with blue eyes (cause I love Ryan's eyes). And again, got what I wanted!
My third, of course I wanted a boy, when asking the man upstairs I wasn't specific about looks, I just wanted a boy and after trying to nurse Kaylyn (who had the smallest mouth) I asked that the baby have a big mouth so I could nurse without so much pain. He does have a big mouth, but to make him look normal I think Father decided to make the rest of him big too. He'll be 2 in May and he's fitting into 3T clothes perfectly.
And my fourth, this is my predicament, I don't know what I want. I'm so smitten with Daniel that part of me is ok if I have another girl, but then the other side is saying I should want a boy so daniel has someone else to play rough with... I'm kinda at a loss. Although, this time, I think I'm going to let it be up to the Almighty (not that it wasn't before, but I won't put in any requests). Just let him take care of it and go from there.
I'm so lucky to have my family, we're so blessed! And, I LOVE BABIES!!!
Oh, P.S. I'm only 5 and a half weeks along!
Thursday, February 11, 2010
When we enrolled her we decided she needed something that resembled a piano so she could practice. We found a little keyboard on amazon for $11, yeah I should have know... It' sounds like we maybe got a $5 value out of it. We were totally disappointed. Emma, not really knowing any better was totally stoked about it and she practiced like crazy, resulting in our ears bleeding.
The other night as I was surfing Cragslist I decided to look under pianos, just to see what we could find, Ryan asked me what I was looking for and when I told him I was looking for pianos, hoping to find a good one for under $1000, it must have struck a cord with him because then he started looking and decided that he really really wanted one. We figured an upright would fit well in our family room and that we would have some very strict rules on when it could be played and when it would be off limits.
So as we're looking on Craigslist we find an upright piano that was in good condition for $600. Needless to say it was a steal of a deal. We contacted the owners and went to look at it the next day. When we showed up to look at it we noticed right off that it was a pretty small piano. Which suited us fine. I fell in love with it, and I think it's perfect. We bought it and brought it home last night.
The kids love having something new to play with, they're really good with it and know not to be too hard.
Our house feels more like a home with a piano and I'm grateful we have the opportunity to learn and enjoy music in our house.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
My newest tactic; time! Kids LOVE beating the clock, so I play on that. While I fold laundry, or do dishes, or even clean up with them I count either up to five or from five down to one. In that time they need to have picked something up. After they have an item in hand they have ten seconds to put it away. It works like a charm, and they love it!
This is how good they did today. I love my kids! I also love how at the end Emma gets all model-ish on me and stoically gazes into the camera.
Friday, January 15, 2010
We started thinking and we have found that for the same price as our home phone, internet and one cell we can get unlimited messeging, unlimited data, e-mail and 550 minutes with 2 cell phones. We don't talk on the phone much anyways, most of the time I prefer to text. So we will be dissconecting our home phone, our internet and storing my piece of junk prepaid phone and will be using a cell phone for all of that. Maybe the cell phone will go to Emma once she's old enough for it. Then again, we could add another line use parent controls, and now-a-days they have 'family locate' where they can track the phone by GPS and even give you turn my turn directions. That sounds good to me. We'll have to see where that goes though.
So all in all, I honestly hope that going with cell phones works out. I hope we're satisfied with the service and that we don't regret signing a two year contract.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
A little history, my dad was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in March of 2003 and in September of the same year he passed away. It's been one of the hardest things to live with. I hate that my kids don't know him, I hate that I didn't have him ther to give me away at my wedding, or to give me advice on things now. I miss him horribly, as I'm sure the rest of my family does. Thats probably why Kristie made these gifts.
Thank you Kristie! I love it!
Gifts like these are the best!
Mom, this is for you and for following that 'mother's intuition', cause it turns out it was right!!
WATCH THIS VIDEO!!!!!
ANYWAYS, here is my jello!And, the best part, I get to take it to family dinner tomorrow! And I know everyone will be giving me rave reviews about it, if they don't then I'll give myself enough rave reviews to make up for it.
Also, as I was laying in bed at 6:00am after getting Ryan's lunch and sending him out the door for work I told myself it was going to be a good day. I made the choice to have a good day and it's been an amazing day! There's still the kids fighting and the house that's a mess but I'm more able to handle it today, I'm not freaking out and yelling and I'm making the girls talk through their disagreements. Yay for good parenting!
Another reason I'm happy, it's so pretty outside today! It snowed like crazy and it's the awesome snow that sticks to the branches on the trees and makes everything look white and gray, I like white and grays. I passed a house on the Annis Highway on my way to my moms today and it had one of those trees that has the little red berries that taste horrible, but, with the snow and the red it was so pretty! I wished I had my camera, today is such a good day for pictures!
On a sad note, something that was really hard, about a week and a half ago we were adopted by a cat. He just came up to our back door put his front paws up on the glass and meowed. I love animals and can't turn one down so I put some tuna fish out for it and he stayed by our door all night (which I hated, it was cold and I didn't want him outside freezing) and in the morning he left. When night came again he was back! So I fed him some more, made sure he had a towel to curl up on and let him in for a little while, we then found out that Kaylyn as well as Ryan is allergic to cats. Fun. So this pattern continued and I had even posted an add on craigslist, trying to find him an indoor home (he was de-clawed).
Then one day as I was getting lunch ready Emma came running to me saying she saw the cat being chased my a black dog. I stuck my head out but didn't see him or the dog and decided I would wait it out. That night he showed up but he was limping. So, sure enough, the dog got him, his back leg at least. About three days passed and he wasn't making any improvement, and we didn't have the money to take him to the vet so we made the decision to take him to animal control in IF. As we're there the lady tells me that if he's injured bad enough the best thing to do would be just to euthanize him. I cried when we left and for about the rest of the evening.
The next day I called the animal shelter and asked what happen to him, the lady told me that the vet had examined him, and his leg was broken and also very badly infected. So it was either amputate the leg or euthanize him. So they euthanized him, I cried like crazy. He was such a sweet cat, he was even good with the kids, he didn't mind them crowding or snuggling him. I was so very sad. I had really hoped they would be able to fix him, and adopt him out to a good home. I know they did what was best though, I don't think for a minute they put him down cause it was the easiest thing, it was the best option they had. They're in the business of saving animals and they do an amazing job at it.
To the cat who adopted me.